School Daze

Heh...

Kids think that they get overloaded at the beginning of the school year?

Try teaching 4 subjects in 5 periods as well as being an unofficial advisor and technical troubleshooter....and trying to keep your brand new coworkers sane as they try to get into the swing of teaching.

For all that this is not my first year teaching, it has much of the stress that I experienced then.

But....

I'd still rather be here than sitting on my duff in a dusty bunk back in A'stan...


Hrmmmm....

At least there I was allowed to shoot back at those things that made my life stressful....


Toodles

Grief

I just don't quite understand the grieving process. I mean....I understand why it happens...and that it is quite therapeutic. I just don't know quite how to do it for myself.

I have often been there for others...and helped them grieve for their own losses...but..

Mine just happen...and...

And...

And...

I dunno


There is a place deep inside my soul that has years and years of grief and pain and tears locked up...

But I don't know how to get into it...

Sometimes...it opens...briefly...but never for long

Not even when I want it too...

It hurts....a deep dull ache...the tears burn at the very backs of my eyes....and I try to open to it...and it passes once again.

Receding...fading back down into the depths of my soul...

In Memorium

Little one,

There is so much about you that we will never know.
The colour of your eyes, your hair...
The shape of your smile,
The sound of your laugh...

Were you Oliver Quentin, with whom we would play tag and catch?
Or precious Olivia Quinn, to be spoiled and cuddled?

With all that we will never know about you...one thing that we know...
Is that you were welcomed and loved.
Your Mommy, Daddy, sister and brothers love you and always will.

Sleep well with God little one...You will always be a part of us.


O.Q.R. RIP 2 Sep 06