Thoughts From a Darkened Tower

Ya know, when you sit in a dark guard tower for hours by yourself, many thoughts pass through your head. Many of my thoughts tonight focused on my life...where I've been...where I am...where I will go...not just physically, but mentally, emotionally...

I wonder mostly what changes this year will render in me. I know that depends on what experiences that I face here. Combat frightens me...not the thought of actually being in combat, but afterwards. I am not so scared of being shot at...but at the thought of having to take another's life. It...is an immense burden...I think...I don't know, and hopefully never will.

I have no doubt in my mind that faced with a situation that requires action, that I will take it...and face the consequences later.

That should make my already somewhat fractured personality so much more interesting, neh?

Well...its late, and I have been deliberately obfuscatory enough for tonight.

Take care all, and have a good summer!

Mik